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Too ashamed to be insecure




Earlier today I counted

the number of marks I need to conceal

From face to hands to leg

I counted sixteen.


If I cleanse my body, would my imperfections fade away

Can I attain the standards of beauty, my thoughts pull away

can I be part of this cruel society, my mind sways

the standards of beauty, daunting my way.


I have sixteen reasons to ponder on

sixteen ghosts that make me feel insecure

Examining myself in the lens sixteen times each day

sobbing and trying to hide the insecurities away.


Maybe I am a torn portrait

thousands of random scribbles all over the surface

Lend me an ethereal paintbrush.

To feel charmed by my image.


Would I finally be really pure

if I subjected my face to more of uncalled cream

my marks, pimples, and dirt concealed away

will I finally look clean?


Behind the façade is an incompetent

and fragile me

Mysteries wrapped in dilemmas,

that I am unable to foresee.


Yet, these propagandists of peer

can never be exchanged for pride

Its the freedom I seek,

it is not within my sight.


I have battled through demons.

from the past and present

drove past the knife's edge

haunted by the veil of silence.


So, maybe there is a purpose why scars last a lifelong.

with the purpose of reflecting experiences and tales

I was crafted in the fiercest embers and am the toughest steel.

And they are signs of my boldness.


My marks are a constant reminder

My marks are a constant reminder

that I am

Beautiful

And My Scars Define Me

Too gorgeous to feel ashamed.


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